Last drawing of the year.

                                                


I thought a lot about drawing whilst I was away in England, three weeks is a long time. When I returned home I was able to continue drawing but this one is the last one made today. Drawing is such a physical and emotional engagement. The reciprocity which exists between the observer and the observed is there to be discovered, the disclosure self being disclosed in turn.

I think that a likeness is often hidden and it has to be encouraged out of itself and in drawing it does not always wear the same face, or rather the face is made as an image of itself, with patience, with determination, with love.

Although the above really was the last of the old year there was this other that preceded it.

A Happy New Year to all.

The disappearing subject part two.

Two pieces from a number of re- workings of the view from my workplace. The drawing is one of several that I have made and re-made and the painting has been underway at the same time: scraped off, repainted, over painted, scraped off etc. It remains a topographical painting and as such a disappointment because what I want is for the subject to be subsumed by the paint, to be painting first and painting last.




ink and emulsion on paper. 65x50cm                                               oil on canvas 30x30cm

It seems that in the process of working there are times when one comes near and then finds the whole thing to be elusive and all one can do is to start over again.                        

Disappearing subject.

ink, emulsion on paper 65x50cm.

 

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                                                    ink and emulsion on paper. 65x50cm

ink and emulsion on paper. 65x50cm

I am spending time drawing, looking hard but trying to make the subject the drawing and not the thing observed and it isn't in any way an excuse for not being able to engage with the thing observed, in this case a tree in my garden, or rather this part of my garden which abuts the tree.

While I am drawing I am asking myself what it is that I want to happen and if I am at all successful will the subject of the drawing become the drawing itself and will the other subject disappear and so a transmutation of sorts  occur and so a new thing made.

So it was of great interest to me to be lent a copy of John Berger's The Shape of a Pocket and read about the subject disappearing. He cites among other things two very different artists, with different approaches to drawing, Leon Kossoff is one; Vija Celmins the other.

He suggests that the painter is continually trying to discover the place which will surround and contain his present act of painting but that the trouble is that when a painting fails to become a place, it remains a representation or a decoration. However when, if, a painting becomes a place there is a slim chance that the face of what the painter is looking for will show itself but the longed for return look can never come directly to him, it can only come through a place.

What any true painting touches is an absence - an absence of which without the painting, we might be unaware.

This example of absence is also to be found in the Fayum portraits: and in the making of these there is an acknowledgement of the exchange, a reciprocity.

Simplifying language, expanding ideas, perception and paint.

Having that one thing that I spoke of before has its advantages in that as one ages one can simplify, try to do with less, say what needs to be said with brevity. I love language, the richness of it but just as much I would love to find the equivalent of a haiku in paint.

Would this require me to erase all superfluous marks ? Would it mean that the paint should be devoid of the signs of the passage of the brush, no longer able to convey the twist of the wrist or the tempo of the gesture?

Clearly this is not what I want so in order to pare the perception and yet engage with the material and interest the viewer enough to stay awhile I need to find a balance.


y ant qu'une chose que j'ai parlé d'auparavant a ses avantages dans lesquels comme un âges on peut simplifier, essayer de faire avec moins, dire quels besoins être dit avec la brièveté. J'aime la langue, la richesse de cela mais autant j'aimerais trouver l'équivalent de haïku dans la peinture.

Exigerait-il que j'efface toutes les marques superflues ? Signifierait-il que la peinture devrait être exempte des signes(panneaux) du passage de la brosse, plus capable de transmettre la torsion du poignet ou le tempo du geste ?

Clairement ceci n'est pas ce que je veux ainsi pour réduire la perception et encore m'engager avec le matériel(la matière) et intéresser le visionneur assez pour rester pendant quelque temps je dois trouver un équilibre.

Having just the one thing.

Red Ash drawing. ink and emulsion on paper.

70x56cm

Red ash and field pattern. oil on canvas.160x120cm

Red Ash. oil on canvas.77x60cm

Red Ash. oil on canvas. 77x60cm.

It is not uncommon for an artist of any discipline to feel that they have just the one offering in them: I would like to think that we can work with that and not worry about fighting it.
 Just attempting to put down something that is true to oneself is a worthwhile goal. We all have recurring themes and I don't think it limits us but rather gives us the architecture on which to build something for ourselves. We examine something and hope to understand more about our histories and motivation. Undeniably there are grand themes and great sweeps but also quiet contemplation.

Ce n'est pas rare pour un artiste d'aucune discipline pour estimer qu'ils ont juste l'offre de celui dans eux: je voudrais penser que nous pouvons travailler avec cela et pas nous inquiéter de nous battre avec cela.
Juste la tentative de poser quelque chose qui est fidèle à soi-même est un but digne d'intérêt. Nous tous ont des thèmes se reproduisant et je ne pense pas qu'il nous limite, mais nous donne plutôt l'architecture sur quel construire quelque chose pour nous-mêmes. Nous examinons quelque chose et espérons comprendre plus de nos histoires et motivation. Indéniablement il y a de grands thèmes et de grands champs, mais aussi la contemplation calme.

Postcard.

                                drawing for Red Ash tree. ink, charcoal, emulsion on paper. 84x70cm

Red Ash. oil on canvas. 60x60cm

Bush. 3rd version. oil on canvas. 160x120cm

R.S. Thomas begins a poem, Here is a post card from middle age, you must come here someday.

Whatever his protagonist expected it to be like I know not: but in looking at a painting I like to see if I can see the story unfolding, like reading a letter: to be a part of the conversation and see history unfold.

This small bush; this large tree, I planted ten years ago when I began my garden. I had no idea that they would become motifs or that I would want to engage with them in this way but they have insinuated themselves into the very paint.

R.S. Thomas commence une poésie, Voici une carte postale du moyen âge, vous devez venir ici un jour.

Quoi que son protagoniste s'est attendu à ce que cela ait ressemblé je ne sais pas : mais dans regardant une peinture j'aime voir si je peux voir l'histoire(étage) se dérouler, comme la lecture d'une lettre : être une partie de la conversation et voir histoire se déroulent.

Ce petit buisson; ce grand arbre, que j'ai planté il y a dix ans quand j'ai commencé mon jardin. J'ai eu aucune idée qu'ils deviendraient des motifs ou que je voudrais m'engager avec eux de cette façon mais ils se sont insinués dans la même peinture.

Listen with Mother.

The painting of a landscape is a story and the telling of it is in the organisation of the spaces on the surface and the marks across that surface.

The European model seems to have been for the most part, that of an object, a kind of still life, save for those who thought of it as an emotion, a conveyance of mood. I can't tell how many painters have made the surface that they have observed become that which they have felt: that in the act of painting they have made a new thing, a new land that supports reflection, sets up a conversation and brings with it the excitement of glimpsed possibilities.

Long, long ago, the BBC aired a weekly radio programme  for young children called, Listen with Mother and in the introduction the narrator would always ask the listeners. "Are you sitting comfortably?" " Then I'll begin"

Toward the boundary. oil on canvas 160x120cms

garden. oil on canvas.160x120cms

garden. oil on canvas. 100x80cms

I received a very kind note today from California and as a result found two new sites of interest. TerrystJohn and Tom Maderos. The sort of painting that makes me exclaim OH YES!