The Selfie and the plain old slog.

Now that Selfie is no longer a neologism and takes its place in the O.E.D. as word of the year I can tip my hat to it. It is an old hat though: the selfie has always been with us. The apps which now facilitate an airbrushed view of ourselves are quick to apply and having made ourselves more presentable but never less, we can bask in the assumption that we were never so beautiful. Never so desirable. Manicured and manipulated, you will recognise the altered state in countless self portraits and I imagine that we aim to flatter ourselves one way or another.

When I go into my shed to make a self portrait I have no idea of the outcome or how long it will take or how many times it will be repainted or redrawn or how successfully I will make the image. It will be based on me of course but it will be more about the drawing or the act of painting than about me for I still don't know how it is that the me changes so much during the time spent working. So much happens in that time. It must affect the image that is made - whereas the photo selfie captures an instant the drawing is a slog which has now taken more than fifty years. It's a journey isn't it, one step at a time.

Here's my shed.

and a couple of selfies.

Parochial ambitions.

I have a narrow outlook: the space I look at is bounded by a limited opening. I think that I read widely, politics, history, art and literary criticism : I love a good read and often do that when in my shed for the purpose of painting. I like diverse views. My painting though is narrowing its focus. That can be a good thing and it is why I like to draw and paint  my head and my garden. Zadie Smith said that she thought writing wasn't about being experimental but rather about finding something true and I think that that can be applied equally to painting.

I have made one large painting over the last months and several small ones. In between times I try to work on my head but the image that I carry within it keeps shifting. In no particular order then are some of the garden paintings.

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                                     160 x 120cm

                     

Deep breath - painters progress, ten years on.

I don't exhibit much, just twice in the last decade. I am lazy I suspect, preferring to just get on with it: both exhibitions were invitations so I had only to see if there was something worth showing and then turn up. It is a risk, sticking one's neck out and part of me wants to and the other would rather not.

For a very long time I would not describe myself as painter; there is a historical reason for that and I won't bore anyone with it: suffice it to say that it was a step too far. Now I have been invited to show some self portraits in a show next year which means I have to get to it because like all that I do it will be a start/stop/redo/start again affair.

There are a lot of excellent portrait painters who have learnt their craft the hard way. I am interested in that slow accretion of expertise and I like very much to see a hard won image. I don't know my limitations yet so I am going to go into this with a degree of naivety and see if anything can be done. I have made a start. The months ahead will suggest a direction and if these tentative beginnings yield anything at all I'll put it here.


I found this today.

Jan Veth. 1888. Cornelia, Clara and Joanna Veth.

and these are  my beginnings - long way to go then.

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Room with a view.

oil on paper. 30x30 cm.

ink, charcoal, emulsion. 170x136 cm.

ink, charcoal, emulsion. 170x136 cm.

oil on canvas. 30x30 cm.

oil on canvas. 30x30 cm.

oil on paper. 30x30 cm.

It is interesting how one thing leads to another and how the process of drawing and painting together cross-fertilises marks and gestures. I have made a number of these over the recent weeks, looking out of the window. When I first moved here and worked in the cellar, it was my daily practice to paint from the view out of the window there and now, after a couple of years in my new space I find that I'm doing it again. The purpose behind drawing and painting together is to see if they can influence one another, not consciously but through the spirit in which they are approached.  I am not a planner, I rarely set out a composition and even if that happens it is quickly altered as the work gets into its stride. However the idea (noted by Ivon Hitchens) of a painting carefully planned and built up stage by stage, carried about in the mind, "felt" for some while and then on the spot various elements being extracted and woven together is clearly a way of working that creates a structure to explore problems of form ,

tone, line.

I am hoping that this interchange will lead to tougher images: I came in this morning and looked around  to find that it all seemed too slight. Would the small paintings work if they were bigger? Do they work as they are? What if the drawings were paintings?  Trying to reconcile something like truth to nature with the demands of the picture, the subject and object dilemma, is truly like being on a knife edge. 

And then that voice in ones head chiding, asking," have you any idea what you are doing?"

Gardening and dreaming.

ink and emulsion on paper. 86x109cm

ink and emulsion on paper 86x109 cm

oil on paper 30x30 cm.

oil on canvas 50x50 cm.

oil on canvas 50x50 cm.

oil on canvas 60x45 cm.

All fields are a life in waiting no less than all gardens await a revival or a disappearing. A life in flux. Resetting time, living in the past and the present , a work in progress like the paintings here made during this summer. A small area of the garden (viewed from the same position each time) which changes all the time and is so transient that it serves so well as a model for the paintings.

Fixing things.

acrylic and charcoal. 170x130cm

acrylic and charcoal. 170x130cm

acrylic and charcoal. 90x90cm

acrylic and charcoal. 90x90cm

28x20cm

These drawings are an attempt to fix (crystalize) an idea that came from the previous paintings and are laid out on the floor while I work it out. I think I can see where this might be going: there are some people I need to look at; late Cezanne ; Siennese painting, perhaps Pierro della Francesca ; Matisse; Diebenkorn, just people to look at. If anyone has a suggestion I would be keen to hear it.

La Tour, Montsales, 12260, France. Ian Warburton, Paintings.

    
                                                 Time Passing. oil on wood. 120x120cm.


In case anyone looking at this blog happens to be in the area, the show is on until August 22nd. The tower is well worth a visit for itself and the view  .Galerie La Tour, Montsales.